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Monday, 09 November 2009

  • cause everytime we touch, i get this feeling..

    10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't list names) :

    1. I'm sorry i hurt you..the truth is, i DID realize how much you liked me,and i couldn't let it go on any further,being that i didn't feel the same way..

    2. if you were to ask me to marry you, I'd do it in a heartbeat,no questions asked.i have that much love for you.

    3. you piss me off, just love me already,I'm so tired of your judgments.

    4. Take this job, and shove it!

    5. i sometimes wonder if i'll one day see your murder on the news.i hope i dont ever.

    6.    your not pregnant,there's nothing wrong with your abdomen,your stomach,or your throat,and yes,it is all in your head,you damned hypochondriac!

    7.the reason i don't invite you anywhere with me is because your attitude and lack of decency to cover your body embarrass me

    8.people talk about you behind your back,and sometimes i dont feel like stopping them

    9.i think your just the bee's knees..and i love that thing you do..

    10. i miss you every day, and i hate it..

    Nine things about yourself.
    1. I didnt just gain weight cause i'm lazy,the last few guys ive dated have either been great cooks,or loved to take me to dinner! ha,so there!

    2. i'm a registered dental assistant

    3. i tend to date/"talk" to guys who's name starts with "J",thus, "The J's"! ha

    4. regardless of how broke i am, i splurge when it comes to toilet paper! haha

    5. i'm a sucker for cowboy boots and big trucks

    6. also a sucker for nerds!

    7.i cant stand the thought of having ugly kids, seriously, i'll throw the kid in the trash, or give him to a grandma.seriously. okay not that seriously, but i hope i made my point!

    8. last names are important, i dont like man, and cant wait to change it, so make sure you have a good one,or we're a no-go!

    9. I have this thing about napkins, i cant stand using a dirty one, so i tend to use bunches of them

    (Note*no, i'm really not that shallow..lol)

    Eight ways to win your heart.
    1. Make me laugh.period.

    2.Get along with my family,its a must!

    3. Do the little things that count,dancing under the stars,love notes,hand holding etc.

    4. Dont always agree with me just for the sake of agreeing with me,i like a good debate!

    5. Get along with my friends,and dont call them names even when its true! hahaha

    6. It never hurts to buy me something every once in awhile! haha

    7. Be available to help when i need it,whether its with my car,or someone to vent to

    8.things just go better when theyre done my way,and i'm always right.even if you dont thing any of that is true, at least let me believe so :)


    Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
    1. Going back to school, and switching majors

    2. Ugh i hate my job

    3. dozens of country song lyrics

    4. haha,what an idiot..haha (yeah, about random people..! ) lol

    5. "Every day's a lifetime without you"

    6. do i really like him, or am i just not wanting to be alone

    7.i hate my stupid phone

    Six things you wish you never did.
    1. go into dental from college,because of a man
    2. leave Jillian at my moms.her name is now Pinky Lee and she wont come near me
    3. date him!
    4. dump him!
    5.dump him, to date him! haha
    6. get drunk that one time at Sarahs..or any anything else that comes with next morning explanations haha

    Five turn offs
    1. laziness(jobless,educationless,worthless!)
    2. rudeness
    3. agreeing with everything i say
    4. heavy mexican accented words (note* Vato,wey,que onda,etc..)
    5.not smelling great..or looking decently put together..

    Four turn ons
    1.smells great
    2. great conversation
    3. hair pulling,roughness,taking control.. ( )
    4. height

    Three things you want to do before you die
    1. Travel to different countries and help out in some way
    2. Write a book
    3.Fly,Sail and commute by train

    Two smiley's that describe you
    1. :D

    2. :-/

    One confession
    1. I hate being nice and smiling sometimes.
    oh.and i fall in love,way too easily,but its never suspected

Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • you were the first thing that i thought of,when i thought i drank you off my mind












    and everytime i need to feel empowered, I cut my hair.
    I call it, "Reverse-Sampsonism"



    i feel like my life,and love life, are totally comparable to a lunch time Cesar salad..the kind i only eat less because of a craving for something fresh, and more because of the need to lose a few lbs..

    leaving me full, but not at all satisfied..

    what do i need to do.who,do i need to see.how can i accomplish this satisfaction.

    i feel like a man, once i get what i want, i'm no longer interested.

    and i dont want it to happen with Him.
    the newest and youngest.the hispanic.the one who is not my type by any means.and also is not the rocker.the one who speaks with an accent and vernacular i normally make fun of behind closed doors with friends..the one who already promises he will be there if i ever need anything,because it must be hard to be so far from home and family.the one who calls me "mama" or "mamas"..who freely expresses his attraction to me, and not in a ugly,but sincere way.
    i do like him.i'm pretty sure i did.
    until we made out.
    then i got that familiar feeling in my stomach.
    as he held me,and stroked my arm with his thumb.
    and i looked around his room.and thought of his past.and his tone.and his living arrangements.his future.his personality.the fact that i will always have to explain things.always have to put them in small terms.have to act like nothing is wrong.because even when something is, we grew up so different,i'm not sure if it would matter to him,compared to what he's been through.
    will they seem to small? how can he ever hang out with the family, playing scrabble,laughing at my mothers board game misshaps..
    watch tv and talk with my brother as i make things for Livy out of play-doh..
    as we munch on food,and talk about diets.
    as the family laughs and videotapes Livy,my Mother and Ashlee dancing.Livy and A.J. running rances in  the backyard.
    my Grandmother wanting to sit close by,and as we try to explain the object of the games to her,just to include her,even though she nods and has a hard time understanding.
    how will he when his life has seen nothing but drug usage by adults,seperation by CPS,the "bad" side of town,and partying at every chance,even before 21.
    will we relate?
    will my sister say he's trash,and that shes "sorry to say" but that i will never find the right kind of man by inviting him to my apartment to watch movies with me.even when nothing happens.
    is my heart genuine in my attraction to his,or just the fact that we're physically attracted,and that i know he cant look down on me,because i couldnt shake that feeling with the others who were always too handsome for me.
    the feeling of being a 4 who is attracted to/dates/finds 7's.and that i dont have to worry about him thinking he's better than me because..in the scheme of things..
    i cant even allow myself to think it.

    man-oh-man...

    I just want so badly to feel that satisfaction in the pit of my stomach.and not just the feeling of fullness.




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